So it's November and only 13 more days, 2 tests and 1 assignment until my BTech year is over! It has been one helluva ride, very similar to that of a rollercoaster with its many exhilirating ups and disappointing downs. BUT I've survived, I may be limping here and there but I'm walking with my head high...
Although there's just one small problem, that little limp, called procrastination! Have you ever felt so close to the end that almost nothing matters anymore, nothing driving you? Almost like you've been walking in the Sahara for months and you finally spot the oasis, but you can't take another step...Well, that's how I feel! I can taste the freedom, the relief, the hard-work all coming to an end, BUT I just can't move fast enough to get there. I've sort of given up, ok not entirely but enough not to worry anymore. It's a dangerous feeling I tell you.
I've procrastinated and distracted myself with all the things I want to do and love. For example, I've just spent weeks buying seedlings and compost to start a vegetable garden. Every afternoon I'm in the garden preparing my veggie box and potting soil, or I'm out at Stodels picking the best seedlings just to avoid having to sit down and do my work!
Another big distraction is baking; in the next 2 weeks, I have the last 3 items for BTech due, however it just so happens that there's a baby shower, 3 birthdays (my mom's included) and Eid. What do you think I'll choose?? I can't get away from the plastic icing and piping bag, not to mention trying new designs for a cupcake!
Internally, it's quite frustrating as I'd like to just get my work over and done with...but I don't have the motivation..maybe it's because I'm subconciously scared that my studies are almost done so it's a way of dragging it out. I don't know! I just need to get my bum ONto the seat (not off, else I'll be baking or gardening again) and work.
Let's hope the next 2 weeks fly by (for the baking or studying I'm not too sure), I know then this dilemma will be over!!
